Lukewarm coffee on rainy evenings.

It's 6:58 PM, the birds are now nowhere to be found, and so is the sun. People's voices from the outside slowly fade as they start to prepare for the night with their families. Sitting on a couch while reminiscing

became a part of your routine. It's not unusual at all, until it started to rain. You noticed that everything in your surroundings doesn't feel the same at all. You looked outside the window and saw the leaves falling as they follow the rain. Trying to not feel lonely, you listen to the sound of raindrops as the frigidity of the wind comforts you.

What you need is a lukewarm coffee. It doesn't matter whatever coffee you like, whether the black one or the brown one; it just had to be lukewarm.

No matter how good you are at faking your smile or how intentionally loud you're trying to laugh, you can never hide the tiredness that lies within your eyes. You embrace the coldness of your past, and of memories you've been trying to erase for so long, thinking that it's the only thing you can do, but you just hate to admit that you're not the one who you used to be. You forgot the sweet taste of happiness, instead now full of bitterness as you try to find something or someone to blame for your irrevocable mistakes, and you hate the idea of pitying yourself considering that you're the only person who knows how hard you try just to face your own battles. Stop thinking that you're lost when in fact, you're not moving. Not even trying to move forward— just left everything behind.

All you need is a lukewarm coffee. Throughout the years, you've grown accustomed to the pain of losing someone you really love, with it, losing yourself too.

You need to take a break, sit on the couch, sip a coffee that's like the one that has been served by your parents way before the downward spiral of your life, take a look back on who you are and how sincere your smile was.

It's okay to feel pity for yourself, it's okay to bear the burden, but don't ever regret the things you did.

Things must have changed throughout the years and no one might be on your side by sunset, but at the end of the day, the home where you can feel the honest comfort you've been trying to find is yourself, and the lukewarm coffee you drink is your memories of the past that once made you genuinely smile and pleased.